I’m usually good at holding my shit together never thought I’d get to the point where I’m mentally exhausted.
A personality that I hate and love about myself but cherish.
Once a friend always a friend. No matter how you treat me i’ll do the best in my ability to help you.
The mindset.
You don’t have to be in another persons shoes to understand what they go through.
You don’t have to experience it yourself to understand.
You don’t have to be a friend to help.
You don’t need equal treatment or fairness to treat someone better.
You don’t always need a reason for things.
To meet someone who actually wants to know you and your story
would be nice.
I’m good at pushing people away its what I do, nothing new. I am who I am. It is what it is. If that’s how things are gonna be then its all gee.
You tell yourself to be happy but you can’t help but be sad.
You’ve become so used to being sad that it is a normal thing to you while being happy is out of the ordinary and it doesn’t come out naturally anymore.
Aloha I'm Derick: I want to meet a special someone.
I have never met that special person where I absolutely love every little thing about them. The way they move, the way they talk, their smile, their eyes. Just everything about them becomes so attractive. The little things that they do just make you go crazy in love. The flaws and insecurities…
I rather be…
the person who has a big heart, who helps too much, who cares too much, who trusts too much, who loves too much, who hurts too much, a person who gives it their all rather than being a person who lives their life not giving a shit. No matter what type of person you are I truly believe everyone is worth the pain.
What hurts more trying or not trying?
The question ain’t what would hurt more but which pain is worth suffering for.
I rather hurt more knowing I tried rather than contemplating on the what ifs.
Pretty much a fool
I’m pretty much a fool to always have a helping hand to those who only go to me when they need something, to those who would not help me in the simplest of ways, to those who clearly don’t give a shit. I’m pretty much a fool to always have a helping hand to those who deserve nothing less but disrespect. I’m pretty much a fool and a fool I’ll always be.
